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So I’ve hit the 2 month mark of being home in Australia, and not surprisingly it’s been difficult. I spent the first month feeling like I was in a bubble and I just went to each activity without really engaging very much in anything. After all, things were busy; I went back to uni 5 days after getting off the plane, jetlagged and overwhelmed. I also dealt with the fact that my part time engineering job no longer existed (I managed to find about 5 hours tutoring a week which has made up for it). But the idea of living without being productive and working was difficult.

The second month was interesting; my parents went off to Papua New Guinea to investigate their own mission hopes with MAF. It amuses me that the two times I have disappeared off for six months, within a few weeks of returning home my parents have gone to live somewhere else. They were only away for one month and honestly it didn’t affect my life hugely, I spent a bit more time cleaning and cooking and driving people around, but overall it was minimal disturbance.

But month 2 was hard, I found I was able to venture out of the bubble I found myself in, but I didn’t really like it very much. Parties and social occasions were very difficult; numerous times I walked in the door and wanted to go home again. Church has been hard, most of the time I’ve been very tempted to stay in bed longer. I’ve been missing my Tico lifestyle, my strong Christian subculture, the warm weather. But, God is good, He has brought me through this time. He has provided people to speak to throughout this whole readjustment process for which I’m grateful. And at the end of the day, it’s generally these hard times that we grow closer to Him, and I can certainly testify to this. The Psalms provide an amazing insight because they are so raw and honest. God speaks, so regularly, so comfortingly.
I never felt completely at home in Australian culture, and I doubt I ever will, with materialism and apathy seeming bigger than they ever did before, but I’ve come to see this as a blessing, that it’s good to see what’s wrong with your own culture. I’ve come to accept that I’ve happy to be a stranger in this world, after all it’s only temporary.
I want to finish off with Psalm 18, I love it, verse 6 espically, nut ti’s worth reading the whole lot!

1 I love you, O LORD, my strength.
2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn [a] of my salvation, my stronghold.
3 I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
and I am saved from my enemies.
4 The cords of death entangled me;
the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.
5 The cords of the grave [b] coiled around me;
the snares of death confronted me.
6 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came before him, into his ears.
7 The earth trembled and quaked,
and the foundations of the mountains shook;
they trembled because he was angry.
8 Smoke rose from his nostrils;
consuming fire came from his mouth,
burning coals blazed out of it.
9 He parted the heavens and came down;
dark clouds were under his feet.
10 He mounted the cherubim and flew;
he soared on the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his covering, his canopy around him—
the dark rain clouds of the sky.
12 Out of the brightness of his presence clouds advanced,
with hailstones and bolts of lightning.
13 The LORD thundered from heaven;
the voice of the Most High resounded. [c]
14 He shot his arrows and scattered the enemies ,
great bolts of lightning and routed them.
15 The valleys of the sea were exposed
and the foundations of the earth laid bare
at your rebuke, O LORD,
at the blast of breath from your nostrils.
16 He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
he drew me out of deep waters.
17 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.
18 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the LORD was my support.
19 He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me.
20 The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness;
according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me.
21 For I have kept the ways of the LORD;
I have not done evil by turning from my God.
22 All his laws are before me;
I have not turned away from his decrees.
23 I have been blameless before him
and have kept myself from sin.
24 The LORD has rewarded me according to my righteousness,
according to the cleanness of my hands in his sight.
25 To the faithful you show yourself faithful,
to the blameless you show yourself blameless,
26 to the pure you show yourself pure,
but to the crooked you show yourself shrewd.
27 You save the humble
but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.
28 You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light.
29 With your help I can advance against a troop [d] ;
with my God I can scale a wall.
30 As for God, his way is perfect;
the word of the LORD is flawless.
He is a shield
for all who take refuge in him.
31 For who is God besides the LORD ?
And who is the Rock except our God?
32 It is God who arms me with strength
and makes my way perfect.
33 He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he enables me to stand on the heights.
34 He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
35 You give me your shield of victory,
and your right hand sustains me;
you stoop down to make me great.
36 You broaden the path beneath me,
so that my ankles do not turn.
37 I pursued my enemies and overtook them;
I did not turn back till they were destroyed.
38 I crushed them so that they could not rise;
they fell beneath my feet.
39 You armed me with strength for battle;
you made my adversaries bow at my feet.
40 You made my enemies turn their backs in flight,
and I destroyed my foes.
41 They cried for help, but there was no one to save them—
to the LORD, but he did not answer.
42 I beat them as fine as dust borne on the wind;
I poured them out like mud in the streets.
43 You have delivered me from the attacks of the people;
you have made me the head of nations;
people I did not know are subject to me.
44 As soon as they hear me, they obey me;
foreigners cringe before me.
45 They all lose heart;
they come trembling from their strongholds.
46 The LORD lives! Praise be to my Rock!
Exalted be God my Savior!
47 He is the God who avenges me,
who subdues nations under me,
48 who saves me from my enemies.
You exalted me above my foes;
from violent men you rescued me.
49 Therefore I will praise you among the nations, O LORD;
I will sing praises to your name.
50 He gives his king great victories;
he shows unfailing kindness to his anointed,
to David and his descendants forever.